Used to do this to myself. I feel happy whenever I get positive results.. :>
Hey mom! I grew an inch!
Fave movie of all time.
Suppose to go swimming by the lake today, but the lake smells like bird shit.T-T
I just read all of the messages written by my friends at the back of this year’s yearbook. I received a lot of HAGS (Have A Great Summer) and GLWC/U (Good Luck With College/Uni) from people I barely talked to. Some messages are encouraging, while some are gibberish written by Kenny: For example, I.. ujhfalsejhfauygfrbjhrfgbwuiedjkwdjabhfsdnxsjkn. With love, Kenny Dang. But one question stands out, who’s my best friend among the group (the group: me, Colin, Kenny, Ginni, and Tony)? This brings me back to memory lane….
I never had a best friend, ever. I’ve had close friends before, but none of them are the best for me. Why? Someday they’ll meet new people along the way, and will someday forget you and the happy moments you’ve had with them. They might remember you 5 years from now, but time changes people. Ginni for example, she was my first friend in BSS. We talked a lot during lunch, she introduced me to the group that spends most of their lunch hours playing cards (with the absence of gambling of course), we shared good music like Mayday Parade, Panic! at the Disco, Paramore, This Providence, The Maine, and other bands. I guess she was my closest friend. But we went a little too far to cause awkwardness, not between me and her, but the people around us. I guess leaning on each other’s back is considered as a public display of affection. I never had a thing for her to be honest. We were just close, but only for the last 6 months of school year 2010.
And then I felt it. She slowly drifted away from the group. We’ve spent the whole year (Grade 11) ignoring each other, and that year was terrible. She ignored me, my friends have 4th lunch, and I got 3rd. Grade 12s hated me, which I can tell from the way they looked at me. Female teachers are annoying and horrible (they give you more work compared to male teachers of the same field) back then. I got dumped. Every moment of school was chaotic. I kept it all inside me because there’s no one close enough for me to talk about this. My friends are all about studies and having fun, I don’t wanna give them troubles of my own. I guess Mr. Shoesmith’s Guitar Class became my personal stress ball.
The following year was almost the same. I gained new friends, learned how to drink (lol). Ginni still ignored me, but not as much as the previous year. She tried to get close to me since we’re graduating anyways, but I didn’t let her. The gap is too wide to even fix it. The people I’ve hated finally graduated. The English teacher that I’ve hated so much was on maternity leave, THANK GOODNESS. They put me back with McGlynn’s class, awesome english teacher with funny stories. I enjoyed Physics class with Hardman, where most guys in our class talks about the future and them f*ckin’ European b*tches.. a lot. While some guys never mentioned a thing like that but laughed hard anyways (I’m one of them). Honour guitar orchestra with Cordelle was fun too, we’re not close and don’t talk that much, but he’s different from people I’ve met. I mean, he’s approachable when I need help with something.
I’ve made a couple of good friends during my last year of high school, and I’ll never forget them. I wish I could just put them all in a jar, seal it, and bring them with me wherever I go. >:D But I have to let them go. In the end, I still don’t have someone worthy enough to be called my best friend. I’m sorry guys, I love you all! (>T-T)>
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